So it turns out..

I'm starting my business degree, well I've started my business degree. First up, a summer school paper, doing Business Communications. It has very little to do with business, in fact most of it I learnt during a stint of CBT (cognitive behaviour therapy) after D was born. But anyway we learn about how people communicate, the nuances of non verbal communication yada yada yada and yesterday we broached the topic of behaviour styles, and what conflict management suits what behaviour style (you get the drift right?)

WELL! there are 4 behaviour styles, Aggressive, Submissive (or passive), Manipulative  (submissive and aggressive rolled into one) and Assertive. Well 3 out of 4 are pretty self explanatory (a,a,s) but the one that caught my attention AND had a good 15 minutes explanation of it was the manipulative, now I'm going to assume you think (as I did) that it means they are manipulative, and for SOME you'd be right but for the majority they aren't manipulative, in fact they try to be as honest and up front as possible. But then there's the full explanation, it is caused by some negative happenings in the childhood (no one that is hasn't had negative happenings iykwim???)  the person would usually be submissive, choosing not to speak up if something makes them uncomfortable or upset or feel anything but happy, these people have poor self esteem that isn't helped through the usual channels (do something good = feel good about yourself) in general they're usually mistaken for depressed people with their general lack of happiness but on the flip side they have this aggressive side that comes out under pressure, explosive temper, uncontrollable moods prone to being more easily upset and difficulty controlling the emotions that they feel when dealing with others the list goes on! Not only are these types of people very rare, these people are also more often than not bipolar, and during an up cycle don't show ANY of these traits instead tending to be more of an assertive behaviour style (which is good, can be argued it's the "best" type to be) Well I was sitting there thinking, tick, tick, tick, tick, the longer my tutor spoke the more uncomfortable I was getting, she kept looking at me so I started to feel like she was plucking all of this out of my head!

Now behaviour styles are a funny thing, they're like temperament, part of who you are, the general makeup of what shapes you, of how you make decisions, react to certain situations. But there is some good news in all of this, you CAN change who you are at a basic level, if you were one of the others, why would you? In my extensive experience with various counsellors and psychiatrists I learnt with a lot of hard work and even more perseverance you can overcome any and all short comings in your head.

So it turns out we have an aggressive and manipulative behaviour types living under the same roof.. Life makes just that little bit more sense now.

Sleepless in... Well Taupo

Thought I was going to say Seattle didn't ya? ;) It is currently 12:45 am (valentines day even) and sleep eludes me, SO, I thought I'd come on here and let out some of the crazy hehe


Hubby gets frustrated with me when I can't sleep "apparently" it disturbs him but really honestly truly I can't help it, I have 2 very full on kids tomorrow with no kindy, does he really think I don't WANT to sleep???? Cause I do. SOOOOOOOOOOOO much! I hate being groggy and tired and having to have 6 cups of coffee just to open my eyes. And to top it off, I have a very important interview tomorrow for an assignment that is worth a whopping 27% of my final mark! Part of me is tempted to just make up the answers and see how much I get out of a "winging it" attempt but then I get paranoid I'll get busted o.O

ANYway, back to not being able to sleep, being up at this hour is very common for me cause I'm one of those thinker/worrier type people so if I have something important on the next day, or there is a problem between Hubby or money is a bit tight or whatever could possibly be wrong, I'll lay awake thinking and analysing and trying to come up with a solution for literally HOURS... I went to bed at just after 10, finally gave up trying to sleep at half 12.... I keep trying to think of a way to fix this thinking problem of mine, mildly ironic isn't it ;)

Now, I made google my friend the other day and looked up 'signs and symptoms of stress' (there's been a fair amount of that going on here of late) and not only is procrastination a leading sign (which just happens to be my biggest yet least favourite pastime) but apparently irritable bowel syndrome is also a common symptom of too much stress... Guess who has needed to go to the toilet 5 times today? >.< You can have 3 goes but I bet you'll get it in one ;)
Well that made me think, if you are too stressed out and it's affecting your body and mind why on earth would it do things that only have one result, more stress???? Completely beyond me as to why to be perfectly honest, I don't even have a theory, and I have a theory for EVERYTHING.

I think the lack of sleep is getting to me, I completely forgot where I was going with that tangent.... So this is me leaving you all to your fun filled (and hopefully less stressful) lives xx mwah!

It has been awhile....

Wow didn't realise how long it had been, shit keeps hitting the fan and it's such a time consuming job to clean up the mess....



And that made me think, considering it's only January we have been through a lot and I'm more certain than ever that the universe hates me, how do you think of life? Let me elaborate,



I am a firm believer in fate, yes you could argue life is full of choice but the type of people we are dictate which option we choose so it's not really a surprise that you choose that path (iykwim??) and of course every choice you make changes the parameters of the next decision you make or what the consequences of your choice are, cause and effect. So I'm a firm believer in fate, we are programmed to willingly choose the path that has been pre-ordained for us



So I'll ask again, what are your veiws on life???

Yeyah!

Schweet, not only did I conquer this app, I found myself needing to d/l picasa app *side note: while Hubby is playing COD online Lappy is out of action, the router is another piece of technology that hates me*

I conquered the picasa app too! as you can tell by this stunning picture I drew of Mordecai uploaded personally from my phone :D

Testing, testing,

See I'm technology impaired, don't laugh, it's a real thing.

The autocorrect and button thing, just the tip of the iceberg, seriously.

I have always loved Nokia phones for this reason, fucking idiot (emphasis on the idiot) proof! So when the Lumia 800 was announced I HAD to have it, it was an obsession.



WRONG CHOICE



I have had nothing but issues with it, the FIRST one I got (will explain later) marketplace just simply would not work after the first 2 days, so after a week of frustration I reset my phone.

I got it back!

..but only for that day. I would wait a few weeks between resets, but it was just so much effort to set it back up I couldn't be fucked after the third or fouth reset.

On top of this, Zune (iTunes equivalent) likes to crash Lappy at random intervals so I hate to plug in [either of] my phone. I didn't realise for 6 weeks that the usb cable had randomly up and quit working on me.

These usb cables are also the phone charger that comes with the phone, it plugs into a usb power point thingee-ma-bob. This phone, assuming I had the original, is still less than a year old! Geez Nokia, what the fuck happened????



Now I'm digressing from the point I was wanting to make, I'm on my phone, using an app that cost me a whole $2....



I tried earlier with a different post but it kept coming up with an error message telling me it couldn't upload OR save at this time (depending on which I was frantically trying to make work). I wrote a lot and I lost it all! Grrrrr stupid phone.

So I'm trying again,

...is it going to work?

Aka, you may need to know this....

So I just realised you’ll need a quick run down so you know who/what I’m talking about (well, DUH) (< I’m a bit slow on the uptake at times lol) SO! Here goes 

We have the mini demons, Mr 4 &1/2 is ‘D’ and Miss 2 & 1/2 is ‘A’
then there is ‘Hubby’ 3 guesses as to who that is 
then we have Moose or ‘mutt’ he is our 6mth old puppy. Not that you could tell he is that age, he’s HUGE!
Our neighbour ‘Next Door’
My laptop (mentioned previously but I don’t want him thinking I don’t love him any more) ‘Lappy’
The 2nd closest friend I have ‘Bubbles’ OR ‘Miss Bubbles’ and last but not least the person who was always there for me while I grew up in a crappy family, ‘baby girl’ or if she’s lucky ‘sis’

Now, I love all these people (with maybe the exclusion of hubby on occasion) so I’m allowed to take the piss but if anyone else says anything nasty about them I’ll……… CAPS LOCK YOU! Dun dun dun!!!  :D

Something new to try?

Bear (is that really the right one?) with me while I sus this out folks, also you might like to note both my laptop (aka Lappy, remember this for later) and my phone, have gotten together behind my back and devised a cunning plan to make me look like an idiot. My phone (stupid win7, NEVER AGAIN) auto-corrects at random intervals and as we already know about auto-correct, we know it. is. never. correct. Now Lappy, Lappy has a funky keyboard whose letters 'N' 'S' and 'W' are intermittent at best, now I do try and proof read but I am only human and miss a shite load of mistakes (hence looking like an idiot).

Now, I would love to keep you following me, but a quick heads up, I really truly am as batshit crazy as they come. Oh! I also swear like a sailor so if you do't (<< a prime example of above note) like it then FECK OFF :D :D :D

Right, a bit about me, I'm 25, have 2 mini demons ages 4 & 1/2 (aka D) and 2 &1/2 (aka A) and a hubby who knows exactly how to be a right pain in my ass. I am a SAHM to the mini demons mentioned above so free time is few and far between BUT! I have a phone that lets me abuse it however and whenever I feel the need... (I guess it's fair seeing as it makes me out to be an idiot)